Aw

Long since I last posted. Right now I am work on my SOP/Motivation/Essay for applying universities. Hard to write. Especially hard for my current status: the "tofu" status. My brain is full of tofu right now. :p No, maybe not tofu, but just fat and protein that doesn't even functioning. Oh I am so amazed that I am still capable of writing. The life have been so dull in the past one month, and I feel so dead. It's like there's always a threshold of motivations (to live) that when I push myself above the threshold then I am living happily, but if I didn't work hard enough then I am nothing more than vegetables... or carnivorous plants. *wink*

There's an exam waiting for me this weekend, and I am not studying at all. Really. And I have to make sure one of my application sends out before Oct 25. Neither am I preparing the digital portfolio. OMG. How do I work when my brain is nothing but junk?

Only one good thing is I am much more clear about what I want now. So writing the SOP is just hard for starting and writing itself instead of thinking of what my motivations are.

But still still still...

I think I need some talks with my friends to make my brain move.